here we are on the rocks again
you cant count on me
and we call ourselves friends
tell me can this really be...
over
Maybe Im just fooling myself
hoping for all the best
I am different then them or so I tell myself
yet you compare me to all the rest
I calculate everything its my curse
every moment counted and remembered
just like every cent emptied from your purse
still you burn in me like an ember
with every look that didnt meet my eyes
every attempt to push me away
questions gone unanswered gone bye
and my doubts kept at bay
it was a beautiful wind felt in my bones
when you entered into my life
a carnival foretelling the end of my being alone
its why I asked you to be my wife
but carnivals come and go with the seasons
and knowing this I pray for its return
loving and living these are my reasons
the reason that for you I still burn
I am who I am though
A king in my own mind
working for my life to go where I want it to go
with my ties my friendships that bind
I counted you among my pack
brought you into my heart
and for all the things I lack
I hoped we would never be apart
God you spirited me away from this place
and now I am here again wishing it all away
My world its cold and garish reflected on my face
yet inside I am a little boy keeping my tears at bay
So scream and hate me
tell me how i cant be counted on
you take solace in others besides me
and I sit here and wait quietly for the dawn
So I ask you to take me for who I am
or break me down until I am all the things you say
then i can stumble away around the bend,
I can be out of this fray
so we can never be sitting on these rocks again.